Body Ecology Day 2- Freedom or Restriction? (Read Time: 3 min.)

I am lying in bed, pretty much unable to move. 

Why you might ask?

Well, I threw out my back this morning carrying my 5 year old in and out of the car as I carpooled my older two sons to school.  As I lie here, I can't help but think, "God is tryin' to tell me something."  So I started today really good on The Body Ecology Diet.  I wasn't hungry, drank 96 oz before sundown, and felt... well, deprived. 

I don't know what it is about this diet.  My body feels great on it but my psyche does a number on me.  I watched my husband have a cup of coffee this morning and, before you know it, my inner child was throwing a temper tantrum about why I can't have coffee and sugar.  On top of that, I was craving a piece of toast... so I had one... and I felt great about it... for about 2 hours... and then came the sugar crash followed by the bloating feeling followed by the lower back pain and muscle spasms.

My "new" plan of allowing myself to follow some of "The Body Ecology" rules but not all of them while also exercising more totally backfired because now that my back's gone out on me (first time in all of my 33 years of life this has ever happened), I can't exercise and, without further ado, I realize that here I am repeating the spiritual 6th grade again.

So what's the lesson?  I'm supposed to be on The Body Ecology Diet and I better get with the program before the Universe sends me a larger message.  Needless to say, I am getting the message.

As Scarlett O'Hara would say, "Tomorrow is another day..."

Back at square one tomorrow.  Oy vey!

What's Your Goliath? (Read Time: 3 min.)

I was watching T.D. Jakes this morning and he (as always) gave a powerful sermon.  One of his questions really struck me:

What's your goliath?

At one point, he stated, "Your provision is in your problem..."

Think about that for a second...

I'm on day #1 of The Body Ecology Diet (http://www.bodyecology.com/) and I can't say it's wonderful.  It's not.  I'm detoxifying my body and my energy levels are in the tank.  I got to cook a big Sunday breakfast this morning and watch my family eat pancakes, french fries and eggs as I had broccoli, egg whites and chicken breast for breakfast.  But the achievement of any dream is not in the dreaming; it's in the doing. 

I plan to step out into the world by April 1st touting the measurements 36", 28", 38."  I plan to run three marathons next year.  I plan to look better at 35 than I did at 25 so in order to do that, I have to be willing to pay the price. 

And here's the deal: my weight has, for decades, been my goliath.  It's time for that bad boy to get slayed.  At another point in the sermon, T.D. Jakes said "The reward was not in fighting Goliath; it was in defeating Goliath." 

And here are some questions I'd like you to consider this week:

What's your goliath? 
How long have you been fighting him?
When are you going to finally decide to defeat him and win?
What will it take to do that?
What's kept you from begining the process?
What will your life look like once you get that slingshot and defeat that bad boy?

It's now or never.  Do what you have to do so you can do what you want to do. 

I've Been Reborn (Read time: 3 min.)

There are points in my life where I get to this exact moment: impatient.  At this moment, I feel like life took a step back in a number of different areas while it took leaps and bounds forward in others... and it leaves me wondering: is this how life goes? 

To read Facebook posts from my peers, it would seem that life is a peachy doory road of ever increasing joy and achievement and there are some moments when I wonder to myself: Am I the only person who has setbacks?  It's a good thing I'm a coach and I know better than that.

Here's the truth: most people won't tell you the truth about their lives, about their failures, about their pain, and about their hurt.  They won't share with you some of their biggest discoveries because those discoveries are hidden within less-than-desirable experiences. 

But I'm here to blow that fake-it-til-you-make-it b.ss out of the water.  In my life, right now, here's the deal: I am not where I'd like to be and I have three key things in my life that need to change RIGHT NOW.  The most pressing for me, at the moment, is my health which is why I'm starting (gulping as I say this) the Body Ecology Diet tomorrow.  I need a major shift in the area of my health.  At 33, I no longer relish in the idea of having plenty of time.  I want to get pregnant and since IVF is the only route available and since I am a few months away from turning 34, I have no choice but to go into this IVF journey in my best shape yet... and that means I have to make some serious choices about how I treat my body. 

Do I know how I'm going to get used to the idea of eating fruit on a empty stomach, not eating couscous or brown rice, not eating most fruits most of the time, and not having protein at dinner?  No, I have no idea how I'm going to do it.  The only thing I know is that the Universe has been telling me for months that this is exactly what I need to do and being the stubborn person that I am, I'm finally listening. 

Here's the deal: I am tired of existing in my own life, of cherishing moments of peace and joy and not basking in the beauty, breadth and pleasure of living my best life yet.  I've spent far too long waiting for the right time, the right moment, the right opportunities and the right amount of money to be all of who I am.  That nonsense ends today.  This is my life and while I'm sure I've lived many lives before and have many more lives to go, this is the one I'm working on right now and I owe it to myself to live that to its fullest.

So, without further ado, without apology or remorse, with regret or disdain, I am rebirthing myself in full. 

Hello world!  Kassandra Bibas has been reborn!