To read Facebook posts from my peers, it would seem that life is a peachy doory road of ever increasing joy and achievement and there are some moments when I wonder to myself: Am I the only person who has setbacks? It's a good thing I'm a coach and I know better than that.
Here's the truth: most people won't tell you the truth about their lives, about their failures, about their pain, and about their hurt. They won't share with you some of their biggest discoveries because those discoveries are hidden within less-than-desirable experiences.
But I'm here to blow that fake-it-til-you-make-it b.ss out of the water. In my life, right now, here's the deal: I am not where I'd like to be and I have three key things in my life that need to change RIGHT NOW. The most pressing for me, at the moment, is my health which is why I'm starting (gulping as I say this) the Body Ecology Diet tomorrow. I need a major shift in the area of my health. At 33, I no longer relish in the idea of having plenty of time. I want to get pregnant and since IVF is the only route available and since I am a few months away from turning 34, I have no choice but to go into this IVF journey in my best shape yet... and that means I have to make some serious choices about how I treat my body.
Do I know how I'm going to get used to the idea of eating fruit on a empty stomach, not eating couscous or brown rice, not eating most fruits most of the time, and not having protein at dinner? No, I have no idea how I'm going to do it. The only thing I know is that the Universe has been telling me for months that this is exactly what I need to do and being the stubborn person that I am, I'm finally listening.
Here's the deal: I am tired of existing in my own life, of cherishing moments of peace and joy and not basking in the beauty, breadth and pleasure of living my best life yet. I've spent far too long waiting for the right time, the right moment, the right opportunities and the right amount of money to be all of who I am. That nonsense ends today. This is my life and while I'm sure I've lived many lives before and have many more lives to go, this is the one I'm working on right now and I owe it to myself to live that to its fullest.
So, without further ado, without apology or remorse, with regret or disdain, I am rebirthing myself in full.
Hello world! Kassandra Bibas has been reborn!
