When I created those dreams, I was excited at the hope of them. When I held onto those dreams, I was passionate about the promise of them. Now that the dreams are actually starting to realize, I'm scared at the thought of both having and possibly losing them. And here's what I've had to say to myself to move through it: Think challenges, not problems... and you LOVE to thrive through challenges.
The way you look at a situation decides how you move through a situation.
And here's what I wanted to blog about. People will tell you about dreams fulfilled. They'll preach to you about what it took to achieve them. They'll motivate you with what they had to do to stay the course but who talks about the sheer fright, resistance, and pain that comes when it suddenly dawns on you what you've struggled so long and hard for is finally coming true and it's now up to you to make good on it? Who's going to talk to you about the fact that having a dream realized also means that you've hit the point of no return, the point where you can no longer be who you used to be and you're heading into a territory of being someone you've never physically met before? It's like going on a blind date... with your best self.
And as I embark upon this next journey of stepping into a new level of personal power, I feel three things:
1) The tug of who I used to be
2) The deceiving comfort of who I currently am
3) The thrill and fright of who I'm slowly but surely becoming
And it doesn't feel like joy every single day of the week. Today it feels like being almost pregnant- think EPT, two lines but one line isn't really there -and I've decided to take that feeling and transform it into joy. Why? Because the alternative is not very fun and won't go a long way in making me feel any better.
What's my point in all this? Scared shitless is not a sign to stop; it's a symbol of you moving forward. Feel the fear and do it anyway!
