My Monster's Celebration (Read Time: 3 min.)

I've begun a new journey of making Sunday my day of rest... a real day of rest, a day where I don't do work, don't think about work, and focus my attention on letting go, letting be, embracing life, and relaxing, knowing that all my needs and desires are met BEFORE I even ask.  So, as I spent the day doing tai chi, qui gong, meditating, and reading Amanda Owen's "The Power of Receiving", I decided to start holding what Amanda calls a "Monster's Celebration."

This is so in line with my chosen approach to doing therapy (Internal Family Systems).  In "The Power of Receiving", Amanda states that "When you create a Monster Celebration, you are inviting the parts of yourself that you have cast out into the Little Circle back into the Big Circle.  Here is some of what you may have evicted: anger, hope, disappointment, laziness, vulnerability, competence, competitiveness, optimism." 

So a Monster's Celebration is exactly what I did for 12 minutes today.  I meditated and the "monster" that came out of my closet was the frightened, worried little girl, the part of me that's always worried that things are going to go wrong, that she'll be left behind, that she won't be safe.  In my meditation, I set a beautiful circular table for one.  Candles were on the table.  Violins were playing in the background.  There were two escorts in tuxedos waiting to help her to the table.  With her magic wand and in her princess dress, she came out of the closet and was escorted to her table.   

Dressed in my own Cinderalla like gown, when my frightened, worried little girl (about 5 years old) sat down, I asked her what she wanted to eat and she requested rolls and butter.  She had a magic wand and every time she wanted something, she'd click the magic wand and someone would bring her something else.  I could tell she enjoyed it.  When I asked her if she minded being alone, she said she liked it.  I asked her why she didn't want anyone else around and she explained that she liked being alone, that she didn't like the noise of so many other people.  I asked her if she ever felt sad or lonely, and she responded, "No.  I know if I ever get scared, you'll be there."

There was so much revealed to me during this meditation.  I realized that I've shunned this part of myself out of fear of looking weak.  I see now that this part of me is very strong, that her worries and concerns are valid and that I have to include her in me because she is a part of me.  I was able to hug her in the meditation at the end and tell her "I'm always with you" and she believed me. 

What a powerful exercise!  Per Amanda's suggestion, I'm going to keep doing this meditation.  I'm going to see how this changes my ability to manifest what I really, really want.  Most importantly, I know that this is bringing me closer to a place of acceptance and self love for myself.  Loving ALL of me means I accept and embrace all PARTS of me. 

This is a powerful first step!

Check out Amanda Owen's "The Power of Receiving" at: http://www.thepowerofreceiving.com/